Today: I wasnt able to go to the gym today; i had to be up at 4 am to do my internship and i did get back at an okay time. Though i was just weak and exhausted. Its days that i dont workout that i feel the worst about myself. These past two weeks have been ROUGH and i hate it. Tony tells me not to be so hard on myself; and i try not to i really do. I just cant help it at some points. I will have my ups and downs; i look at people like Lauren Regan and i IDOLIZE her. I know she didnt get that way over night so fellow readers. always remember. Even if it is hard its worth it, "if it was easy everyone would do it". So its just a fall down time for me. Due to my internship i didnt pack the food that needed to be packed and when i came home i had like half a bag of gummy bears, pbj and like 3 glasses of chocolate milk (yum). Ryan brought me subway for dinner; so with my paycheck tomorrow i need to get more food to pre cook. and maybe some quest bars or something of the same sort. im not a hundred percent on this train again and i dont want to keep falling off. I recognize what i am doing; so its a start i give myself credit for that. My goal is to be a changed person in a year; so by graduation time. I want to be able to hold my deploma up and say "I DID IT" and mean that in a couple different ways. Just food for thought tonight, and holding myself accountable .
Quote of the day:"Chin up beautiful. Your mistakes do not define failure. They define your efforts. Even if you stumbled, just take a step forward and keep moving on toward your goals"
Goodnight everyone,
keep going towards your goal
XOXO
Becky
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